I envy the way you can make such pretty art, Some say that’s a sign of a suffering heart What I would give to express my pain like you To write a single verse that rings half as true But the beauty inside of me remains suppressed Censored in my mind so scattered and depressed I wanna be Conor, I wanna be Elliott, I wanna be yours I don’t cry very often, but clearly, when it rains it pours I may not have their way with words but let this be emphatic If something should catch your eye again, ill be just as nomadic So don’t feel bad, you can go and follow a path of least resistance This time it’ll take more than that to for me question my own existence Now I sit here alone with my broken heart and a vacant slate I keep forcing myself to write despite my inability to articulate All of these beautiful things I so often feel but hardly express I think it’s fair to say you did this to me on purpose, but I digress

I want your voice to steer me home Without your guidance I’ll only roam Can’t see straight, eyes wide shut It’s you I see, and nothing but You loved me in my darkest hour Said, “Blackness gives the stars more power Soon those plasmas will shine for you Flat on your back; you’ve the best view”. Then you reached out your hand and helped me back up Hugged me and hushed me and I saw you close up I knew in that moment that we’d fallen in love You filled me with something I’d been deprived of So finally, I’m trusting myself to feel again Don’t let this one abandon me, dear god, amen.

Punch the roof and say pediddle but you didn’t want to play Well we both know that’s against the rules so I asked are you ok Said you didn’t want to talk about it, its just been a bad day And I thought a million different things that I could never say Is there nothing I can say is there nothing I can do, no theres not Is there nothing I can say that wouldn’t bother you? Is there nothing I can say is there nothing I can do, no theres not Why cant you understand that im in love with you Well we both wanted to kiss so I parked down by the T and we got busy makin out right in my moms backseat When a truck pulled behind us started flashing his high beams You demanded that I take you home, now you and I don’t speak Is this what I deserve is the world after me, no its not Why does everything I do come back to trouble me Is this what I deserve is the world after me, no its not Why cant you understand that shes in love with you And we were kids living life with one foot in the grave We learned to love a little more each and everyday Our message was survival, and such it had to be Cause we could never face the world without each others company

I’m in comatose state, poppies thick in my veins but I don’t want to be saved So leave me be, let me rest, when I’m awake I’m depressed, and I would rather be dead I lay in bed like a corpse and live without much remorse this drug has taken my brain Everyday it’s a little harder waking up Everyday I need a little more from these drugs Now and then I wish for someone I could tell Of the way that I’m putting myself through hell A boy in hospital bed would fight like hell just to live so why won’t you let me die You got your arms stretched in front, you’re saying, “Baby don’t run, I want to love you tonight”. But what about both our pasts and all the future we have girl would you love me for life? You promise me that you will and hold me perfectly still our hearts are beating in time. Everyday it’s a little better waking up Everyday I need a little more of your love Now and then I wish for someone I could tell Of the way that you’re dragging me out of hell

Sat next to you while you sat and you cried And through your tears you hardly tried To help me understand the reasons why You didn’t need me anymore. And I thought we looked silly to each passerby As I sat there abandoned with my reclusive sighs I said you know love I find it hard to sympathize I’d have never done this to you. I’ve been doing some thinking and now I’ve decided I’m bestowing my love in the girl who’s confided The anecdotes of such miserably aching insides And her deepest emotions in me This time around we’ll be crying together, When push comes to shove, we’ll both pull a trigger. Cause that is real love, decisions are made together So you go your own way don’t follow me

That crucial filament is all but spent And soon it will be dark in my basement My heart is waxing the slick floor again Hoping I'll slip, and fall in love Well, she gave me the choice To remain and rejoice, or to recoil and rebel Well, Papa, this gravity attack Yeah, it's a gravity attack And I can't seem to carry, much less bury the past Well, your ex-girlfriend said I was a terrible mess Yeah, she's got a real good head on her shoulders When the singer spoke and confessed He didn't really smoke cigarettes She said her teenage brother smouldered On a hotbed of coal in a sterile white room Underneath that Joy Division poster He moaned, "Papa," he moaned, "Papa Sometimes I gotta vent my spleen Sometimes I gotta vent my spleen When I get shattered in the heart And scattered in the brain" Well, all the medicine in these sermons Still can't keep his brazen nose from turning And salvation, it may come free of charge But faith always costs him something They say there's nothing as sacred As the blood between brothers When it's pricked from their thumbs And exchanged beneath the covers Well, Papa, my brother is gone! Yeah, my brother is gone! So would you tell me now how it is I'm supposed to get along? Well, you asked for a chorus but you got a refrain Yeah, it's another sad song that moves like a train You can't whistle to it But you can fast-forward through it Flick it off your shoulder like dead skin They say my head on a plate May curve the debate About the unbearable high cost of living But Papa, everything falls apart! Everything falls apart And the grass will grow As surely as they'll break your heart

Everybody hurts as bad as you, you just have a lot of trouble understanding how, Everybody understands what it is thats wrong with you, you just dont understand how, Some people they can hide it better than you can, No, I just won't believe that 'cos I can't understand, If you felt the way that I did you'd be dead yesterday, but I'm not , so why don't you get off my back, If you felt the way that I did, you would lay in bed all day and cry the way that I did when it was hard